I can keep goin on with this words and write a circle around your thoughts till it hurts

just thinkin about what brought you here starts to disappear 6 feet under the dirt

The top soil collapses into you drowning out the air inside of you

If you can feel it then release whats inside of you

Feel he waves crash down, feel the dark invade all around you. 

Cuz this feelin of feeling complete hasn’t hit me since that last defeat

this hopeless romantic scheme has fallen through, torn from the seems 

Unprotected by the cold winds of this lonely village in my head

bustling with the activities of me, myself and a love that’s dead. 

and I killed it. 

this is my source of venting for now… tumblr is where not many people go and actually take the time to read my posts. 

honestly, i feel like shit. EVERYTHING. is different now. i’ve turned into something that i said i wouldnt be. and the old me is still latching onto me and pushing me down, hurting. idk whats wrong. i need to decide. 

My anger is deciding to control my life, all thoughts relate back and just make me either depressed or angry… I CANT FIND A HINT OF HAPPINESS. 

i need booze, a lot of it..

Something to take away the edge, make me forget. make me just get through this. 

I used to be strong. Now I don’t know what i am, just invulnerable. its not what i want. but it helps me deal. 

the thankful thing is noone is really gonna notice this. so i’ll be ok… 

Its been a while since my heart was whole
the pieces scatter the ground, blackened like coal
maybe it’s better to have left them there
maybe it’s okay to strip myself bare
begin anew with the hope of recovery
bring about a new miracle in me
reborn into life, accepting of the death
the only truth this life has set

I pray that tomorrow my life falls to place
pray that I fall for someone who stays.
I pray that maybe you will remember
Don’t throw away the love letters
they forever hold true to my heart
I’ve felt the same for you since the start
But i don’t mind as long as you’re happy
go the distance, smile without me

So here’s the eulogy of a hopeless romantic
Of a man who’s smile is now plastic.

awakenedphilosopher:

I think of you
when I’m alone
wandering waylaid roads
through shadowed trees

I think of you
when I’m away
tossed in salty turmoil
on angry seas

I think of you 
in darkest night
where shadows rule
and demons dwell 

I think of you
most all the time
and it guides me
through this hell 

Inspired by the story, but this is for all of us

Lets numb the pain with anger, as the words seep in like nectar
Into the roots of your existence, you haven’t known till her presence,
Cause a wise man once said, don’t trust women till your dead
Cuz they cant hurt you then, your heart wouldn’t beat, wouldn’t hurt them

This is the Anthem of us Hopeless romantics
Cheers to our fake smiles and our half antics
So here’s to all of us alone out there or
Willing to die for the ones we care for.

So here’s to us, the hopeless romantics,
Maybe we’ll get our luck or poison, you pick.

This is a story of a hopeless romantic
Make him see he’s worth it through magic
he doesnt understand, everything is tragic
Such a woman doesnt exist.

Because its to hard to prove to him
His life isn’t as hopeless, isn’t as grim.
isnt as lonely or isnt as it seems
Explain it through his screams

Screams of anger, screams of pain
Of all you tried, but ended in vain

No one knows the hopeless romantic
Chivalry is gone, ended so tragic
Maybe its just time to end this
maybe It’ll be just like bliss
To get to the end of the line
No one else behind

I’ll be the last one through,
Pushing the rest to happiness, i may fall through
I’ll keep to myself, nothing else matters
Just myself and i, I dont trust the latter
I don’t care, i dont mind,
I can leave if you need time

All the shit in side my head,
wont come out till i’m dead
even then, the words are lost,
my lips are shut, no matter the cost